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Sunday, February 28, 2010

I wanted to hug her!

Some random picture.

Today I had to go to a meeting with the missionaries, so I wore a skirt,heels, and a purple flower sweater thingy. After the meeting was done, I went to the mall real quick for something. I was in Barnes and Noble for a while, I turned a corner and there was this adorable little girl, probably about 4, I just smiled really big at her, when she saw me she said loudly, "OOOHHHH OHHH MOMMY OOOHHHH LOOK!!!" The mother continued saying, " You like those bags?" (There were some Barnes and Noble bags beside me) The little girl preceded to say, "NO LOOK AT THE PRETTY LADY!!"

She lit my whole world up. I love those precious little things you called "kids".

Sunday, February 21, 2010


"Are you okay?" you asked, several seconds into our hug.

"...yes..." I answered. "Why?"

"You're holding me a lot tighter than you usually do."

I was so excited to be in your arms that I hadn't really noticed that I had thrown mine around you with a lot more enthusiasm than usual. Whoops! I had already opened my mouth to apologize when I felt you shifting your grip to pull me even closer. So what actually came out of my mouth was fueled by my flustered, fluttering brain and was a lot lamer than I would have wanted.

But you didn't seem to mind my inane babble.

And then you held me for a long, long time.

Why, oh why, can't such moments last forever?

Courtesy of letterstocrushes.com

Friday, February 5, 2010

What's for Dinner?!

I don't think guys read this blog so I'm safe.
I don't know what's going on with me!
There has been a lot of changes in me lately such as food. I'm liking things I never liked before, such as dark chocolate, pistachios, and...
I'll just say it. I'm baby hungry. And not in like I want to eat a baby.
Baby hungry as I want a baby.
I don't know if I just need some birth control and have all my nieces and nephews come visit me in Omaha or what, but I've never had these feelings THIS strong before.
Like, yeah I've always wanted to have kids and be a mom but I've just noticed lately that it's extreme.
Every time I see a baby things inside my body just go crazy,explode,melt, and drop all at once. I have an instant urge just to hold it tight and love it.
I never really liked the show Baby Story on TLC. I would always change it and watch something else now I leave it on and watch it.
I get really emotional and start crying. Like a happy cry.
It's so crazy how a baby can grow inside you and come out healthy and beautiful!
I know it's going to be a long while before I will have one of my own, it's gonna kill me but I can't wait for that day.